I Will Love You More Than Death pt.7

 I Will Love You More Than Death pt.7

Kieran P.O.V.

I'm so excited! I have my first concert tonight! And there's a band opening for me! I can't believe it! I'm backstage, getting everything set up. Emily is helping me put my ear pieces in, so I can hear my guitar. "There, you look great!" She said, kissing my cheek. "Thank you baby, I'm so ready to blow the roof off this place!" I said, strumming my guitar. "Hehe, babe this is an outside venue, there is no roof." She giggled, which was adorable. "I know, I know, I'm just that ready." I said, pulling her in for a nice long kiss. "You're gonna be great tonight." She told me. "Thank you baby, I appreicate that." I said, giving her one last kiss. "Thank you Torn Apart! Weren't they great everybody!" I heard the announcer say. The crowd went wild, it was nice that they were applauding the opening act. Torn Apart comes back stage, and walks over to us. "Hey, man you have fun out there." One of the guys said, giving me a fist bump. "Thanls dude, you guys were great!" I told him, and he nodded his thanks before heading back to the bus. "Okay, now presenting for the first time ever! Kieran Danson!" The announcer said. To my surprise, the crowd went wild! They were chanting my name! It was everything I ever dreamed of! Emily gave me a thumbs up, and I picked up my guitar and walked on stage. "Hello LA!" I shouted at the crowd. They went crazy! "How we all doing tonight?" I asked, and they screamed "GOOD!" "Let's rock!" I said, playing the opening chords to one of my songs. The concert was amazing! The crowd was so hyped, and they sang along to all my songs! It was amazing! I'm at the hotel room with my girl, and we got cleaned up had some food, and are now just cuddling. "You were incredible!" Emily tells me, as I hold her close. "Thank you babygirl." I told her, softly caressing her arms. "I can't believe I get to live my dream with my fiance." I tell her. "I love hearing that, it feels so good to be your fiance." She tells me, lifting her head up to kiss me. "I can't believe we actually got a room for the night, so we don't have to sleep on the bus." Emily says giggling. "It's not that the bus isn't nice, it's just cuddling with you is a lot easier in a full bed, then in a bunk." I say to her, and she blushes. God I can't wait to marry this girl, I promised her that once tour was over we would get married. Emily pulled out her camera, and was showing me the picture she took of us today. We had some time before the show, and we went sight seeing. After all, it was our first time in California. "This was a really great day." She said, smiling. "It was, but we should get some sleep now." I said, my next concert was in Florida, and we had a flight early in the morning to get there. "Yeah, I know. I just don't want this to end just yet." She said. She was so cute, and so full of life. "I know what you mean baby, but we have a flight to catch tomorrow." I told her, booping her nose. "Yeah, okay. Let's go to sleep. I love you." She says, kissing me. "I love you too babygirl, sleep well." I tell her, as I turn off the lamp. Emily snuggles close to me, and puts her head on my chest. It's where she feels safest, and she told me, she likes listening to my heart because she likes knowing I'm alive. It's the sweetest thing ever, so of course I let her do it. Once I know she's asleep, I softly kiss her head. Then I drift off as well. 

Emily P.O.V.

Kieran's first show, was a huge success! I'm so proud of him, the crowd loved him! We're currently on our way to Florida, where Kieran has a show in Miami! Since we have some time before the concert, we're gonna go take a look around! I'm hoping to take pictures of all the places we go to on this tour! That way, when we get home, I can put them in a photo album, that's gonna be my wedding gift for Kieran! I still can't believe I'm engaged! All of this doesn't feel real, we're actually living the dream! Because I don't need to write anything right now, I can just enjoy myself this tour! Which I've been doing! After our plane landed, and we grabbed our bags, a taxi came to pick us up. The rest of the crew drove all the way here, on the bus and we're meeting up with them to go over some things. After we met up with the crew, Kieran rented a car for the day and two of us went around Miami. "Ooh look babe! Flamingos!" I said, pointing out the window. I took a picture. "So cool!" He said, looking too. We drove around for awhile, taking in the beauty of Miami. It was a spectacular sight, we even stopped by a little park. "Just like old times, huh?" He said, as we walked the pathway. "They're not that old of times, we were just in our park not that long ago, when you proposed to me." I said, giggling. He smiled at me, and held my hand. "Speaking of that, what do you want for the wedding?" He asked me. I thought about it, and I think I knew what I wanted. "I was thinking of a small ceremony? Just the people closest to us, oh and of course the crew and Amanda." I said. "I like that." Kieran said, with a smile. "For my dress, I want a white flowing gown with black flower detailing." I said, picturing the dress in my mind. "Oh, that would be amazing!" Kieran said. "I was thinking I would wear a black and red tux, like the suit is black but there's red rose piping on it." He said. "Oh Kieran that sounds perfect!" I said, feeling excited. We talked more about the wedding, while on our little walk. "Oh, babe! More flamingos! Let's see them!" I said, grabbing his hand and leading him over there. After the flamingos, and a bunch of pictures, we headed back to the crew. Kieran had a soundcheck to get to, and Amanda wanted to go over some promotional stuff with me. "Good luck at your sound check!" I said, kissing Kieran on his cheek. "Thanks baby, you have fun, and don't work too hard!" He tells me, kissing me back. "Hey girl, there isn't much to go over, just enough that I need your approval on something." Amanda said, as she took me on the bus. "Hmm, I think this poster will be better, it shows off his stage presence." I said, choosing posters for the concert. "I think so too, thanks dear. You're free for the rest of the day." Amanda said, I give her my thanks, and text Kieran to see how he's doing. He texted back, saying that he's done with soundcheck, and is on his way back. I decided, to have a little rest, and went to the back of the bus, where the lounge is. I took out the book I brought with me, and grabbed a muffin from the table. "This is perfect." I said, as I started reading. A little while later, I heard a knock on the door. "Baby? It's me!" It was my fiance! "Come in babe!" I said, and he opened the door. "Hey beautiful, what have you been up to?" He asked, sitting down next to me. "Oh nothing, just reading the book I brought." I said, showing him the cover. "Ooh, it looks interesting. What's it about?" He asked, and he settled in next to me, while I told him about it. Before we knew it, it was time to go set up for the concert. We all made our way to the venue, when we got there, we saw Torn Apart setting up their instruments. "Hey guys!" Kieran said waving to them. "Oh hey Kieran, great show last night!" One of the guys said. "Oh thanks, you guys too." He said. "Appreciate that man." Another one of them said. "This is my fiance, Emily." He said, introducing me. "Nice to meet you." They all said to me. I nodded, letting them know it was nice to meet them too. "Can she not speak?" One of them whispered. "She's autistic, and not very comfortable around new people." He said, putting a protective arm around me. "Oh, okay. No problem. I have a little sister who's autistic, so it's no issue." One of the guys said. "I think we should properly introduce ourselves." Torn Apart said. "I'm Kevin I play the drums." Kevin was very tall, with tattoos covering his arms, he had both ears pierced with silver dagger earrings, he had green eyes, green hair that was spiked, and wore a black leather vest with black leather pants. "I'm Blade but my real name is Dexter, I play bass." The next guy said. Blade was a little shorter, had a black spider tattoo on his neck, he was wearing a black tank top, with some cargo shorts. His hair was red, and was stlyed in a mohawk. He had brown eyes, and wore a spiked collar. "I'm Mason, I'm on lead guitar." Mason said. Mason was a little taller than Blade, he had electric blue hair, with yellow streaks through it, a barbed wire tattoo that wrapped around his right forearm, he had both eyebrows pierced, and a tongue stud, he was wearing one of their merch shirts, with leather pants, and big black combat boots. "I'm Trevor, and I sing lead." Trevor was the tallest of the group, with black hair, tattoos pretty much everywhere, had on a white tank top, with fake blood stains on it, some black skinny jeans, he had his lip pierced, and wore some corded bracelets. and was wearing black converse. "Nice to meet all of you." Kieran said, and I nodded. "Well we'll let you guys, get ready." Kevin said. "By the way, your fiance is beautiful, you're a lucky guy." He said, as he walked by. I blushed, and looked away. "I know I am." Kieran said, as he planted a kiss on my forehead. The concert was in full swing, Torn Apart killed it, they are a pretty cool opening band. Then it was my fiance's turn, which I knew he was gonna be amazing! "Have fun out there babe!" I said, kissing him on the cheek. "I will baby, I made a little change to the set list tonight." He said with a wink. "Hey, you have a new eyebrow stud." I noticed. It was a black heart stud. "Yeah, it's the one you got me, at that place when we were in California." He said, smiling. I smiled back, gave him one last kiss before, Kieran walked on stage. "What's up Miami?!" Kieran yelled into the mic. Thank goodness I brought my headphones with me, being this close to the mic and the speakers is a lot for me, so having my ear defenders is a huge saving grace for me. Then Kieran starts his set, he plays a few songs off his album, then our guitar tech Robbie comes out with his acoustic. "Alright you beautiful people, we're gonna take it down now. This song I wrote for my amazing fiance Emily." He said, and started strumming. I realized it was the first song he ever wrote for me. Tears came to my eyes, and he looked over at me. I waved, putting a hand on my heart. He smiled at me, as he sang, and I knew he meant every word. I think the crowd loved it too, because they were all swaying, and had their phone flashlights on. "Thank you Miami!" Kieran shouted, after his set. He blew kisses to the crowd, then ran off stage. "You were amazing!" I said, as he scooped me up into his arms. "Mwah, mwah, mwah. Thank you baby!" Kieran said, peppering me with kisses. "Seriously, I'm so proud to be with you." I said, looking him straight in the eyes. "I'm proud to be with you." He said, capturing my lips in a kiss. "It wasn't too much for you was it?" He asked, as he caressed my face. "No, I was fine, I had my headphones, so the noise wasn't that bad." I reassured him. I loved how he looks out for me. "Good." He said, kissing my forehead. "Hey man, you killed that set!" Blade said, coming over. "Thanks Blade." Kieran said, as they fist bumped. "Hey, we're off to a party, would you like to join us?" He asked Kieran. "Oh, um that sounds fun, but I don't know." He said, looking at me. "You should go babe." I said. "Really? You wouldn't mind?" He asked. "No, you should enjoy yourself with your new friends, I need some time to decompress anyway." I said. "Okay, as long as you're sure. I promise I won't be there long, and I'll come back to cuddle you." He said, kissing me again. "Okay, now you go have fun." I said, as he hugged me, then headed out with the guys. 

Kieran P.O.V.

I'm at a party with Torn Apart, and it's pretty good! There's a DJ, a refreshment table, and everyone is dancing, and having a good time. "Hey, aren't you Kieran Danson?" Some drunk guy came up to me and said. "Yeah I am." I said. "Dude you are awesome!" He yelled, then ran away. "Well, I guess he's a fan." Kevin said to me. "I'm gonna get a drink, you want anything?" He asked. "No man, I'm good." I said. "Alright then." he said, then he left. "Come on dude, let's dance!" Blade said, dragging me to the dance floor. "Woo hoo!" I said, as we busted out some moves. It was actually really fun, but sometime during the dancing, the guys disappeared. I found a couch, and sat down catching my breath. "Hey man, have you ever, you know?" Someone asked me, and I saw there was white stuff on the table. Then I saw other people, snorting it into their noses. A wave of panic washed over me. "Um, no I should go find my friends." I said, looking around for the guys. I couldn't see them in the crowd of people. "Oh come on man, it will take you places." The guy next to me said again. "No, I don't want to part take in that." I said. But the next thing I knew, the guy practially slams my head on the table, and forces the drugs down my nostrils. I couldn't breathe, and gagged when they let me go. My vision was going blurry, and I suddenly felt like I was in another world. Everything was spinning, but it also felt great. I wanted more, I went back to the table and snorted more of the white stuff up my nose. Everyone around me laughed, as they snorted up too. I got really loose, and started dancing again. I think the guys found me, and came over to me. "Dude, are you okay? We've been looking all over for you!" Mason said. "Oh yeahhhh, I'm fineeeee." I was not in my right mind, I think my speach was slurring, but I couldn't tell. "Dude are you high?" I think it was Kevin that asked me. "What? no, no, no, no, noooo." I slurred. "Okay, that's it, we're getting you out of here." I felt myself being picked up, and I think the guy next to me, slipped a bag of the drugs into my pocket. But I was so out of it, I didn't notice. 

Trevor P.O.V.

We never should have let Kieran out of our sights, now he's high as heck and we can't tell Emily. This will crush her! But at the same time, she should know what happened. Apparently, before we left the party, the bouncer that was working, said he saw some guy shove the drugs down Kieran's nose against his will. That jerk! We can't send him back to Emily, but she will be worried if he doesn't show up. "We have to tell her." I said to the guys. "What? No dude, she'll freak out!" Kevin said, as we propped Kieran up on the table in our bus. "Look at him! He's in no condition to be around her!" He said, getting angry. "I, I wanna see Remily." Kieran slurred. There was no way, we were letting him near her like this. "No way man, not until this is out of your system!" Mason said. "You, can't keep me from her!" Kieran said, standing stronger now. He raced for the door, and we tackled him to the ground. "No, you're not going anywhere!" Blade said, blocking hi way. But then Kieran, shoved Blade out of the way with so much force that he went flying into the bunk area. "Blade!" I said, going to check on him. While I was making sure Blade was okay, I could hear the other guys fighting with Kieran. Evenutally I heard one of the guys say. "Come back here!" I went back out to the front of the bus, and saw the door was slammed shut again. "Guys, he's locked the door!" Mason said, with worry. We tried everything we could to get the door open, but nothing worked. And we couldnt break the door down, because we were renting this bus and couldn't damage it. We were stuck. "I just hope Emily is safe." I say. 

Emily P.O.V.

I was hanging out in my bunk, on the bus waiting for Kieran to get back from the party. We coudn't get a hotel room tonight, so we'll have to sleep on the bus. Which was fine, I understood. Luckily we were able to take showers at this place down the road, they weren't perfect, but they did what they needed to. I was watching something on my laptop, when someone came barreling into the bunks. "Oh my God! Are you okay?" I asked whoever it was. When the person stood up, I saw it was Kieran! "Oh babe, you're back! Did you have fun?" I asked him. Only when he stood up, he didn't seem like himself. "Kieran? Are you okay?" I asked. "Heyyyy baby, you look really sexy." He said to me. I cringed, I hated being called sexy, and he knew this. "Babe? Why did you call me that? You know I hate it." I said, feeling upset. "But you are, really sexy." He said, as he came closer. "Have you been drinking?" I asked, suddenly very scared. "No, no, just got this really good stuff." He said, he sounded funny. "Hey, how about you and I do it." He said, and I really got scared. "Babe, cut it out! You're scaring me." I said, getting up and backing away from him. "Come on baby, let's do it, I really want to." He says, getting closer. "Get away from me!" I shouted and pushed him away. I ran out the door, and went to find our tour security guards Paul and Frank. "Guys, I need your help!" I said when I found them. "Hey, what's wrong Emily?" Paul asked, concerned. "K-Kieran, he's he's." I started to have a meltdown, I sat down on the ground, rocking and crying, repeatedly slapping myself in the chest. Frank comes down next to me. "hey, hey, it's okay kiddo, just breathe." He tells me, and I try my best to get my breathing under control. "Paul you go to the bus, and see what's happend to Kieran." Frank said to Paul, and he left as quickly as possible. Frank managed to get me calmed down, and he called Amanda on his phone. She came pretty quickly, and gave me my emotional support plush. I held Little Foot close, and petted his head. It helped me relax. "Come on Emily, you can spend the night with me." Amanda said. She was able to book a room for the night, and said I could sleep there. Paul came back, and looked very worried. "I couldn't find Kieran, I don't know where he is." He said, very concerned. "Don't worry we'll find him." Amanda said, she immediately had Paul and Frank do a search of the parking lot. "See if Torn Apart knows what happened to him, their bus is next to ours." Amanda called out to them. It's been a few weeks, since my world fell apart. Kieran is no longer the boy I fell in love with, he gets high everyday, he's even performed high. The fans are concerned about him, I'm concerned about him. The whole team is concerned. The guys from Torn Apart have been very supportive, and we all hang out all the time. They keep me company, and I appreciate it. But I miss the love of my life, it hurts seeing someone you love become and addict. I've been thinking about calling off the wedding, everytime I look down at my ring, it just reminds me of what was once good. I've been so distraught, I can't even write. Even music doesn't seem as bright as it used to be. "Heyyyyy, babyyyy." Kieran comes in one night. I just ignore him, I turn away from him on my bunk. "Heyyy, what's wrong? Did I do something?" He asks, but I know he's not all there right now. So whatever I say, it won't do anything. But I feel like I need to give him a piece of my mind. "I don't even know you are anymore." I tell him, in a voice so quiet. "I'm still me." He says, as he sways. "No! You're not! All you ever care about anymore, is partying and getting high!" I shout at him. "You don't care about me at all anymore! And, you missed Sammy's birthday! You promised him you would call him, and you didn't! So I had to wish him happy birthday from you for you!" I shouted. Sammy was so disappointed, he cried on the phone, and I did my best to comfort him. He did get the present I sent him though, it was a ankylosaurus statue I got when we were in Colorado. I knew he would love it. "Do you still love me?" He asked, and I think he sobered up a little when he said that. "Of course I still love you, I love you so much it hurts! I hate seeing what you've become." I said, letting the tears fall. "Do you still want to marry me?" He asked. "I don't know." I said, as I laid back down in my bunk, sobbing quitely. I heard him leave, and I let it all out. I looked at my ring again, and took it off. I put it under my pillow, and cried myself to sleep. 

Kieran P.O.V.

I know I messed up, I was so disappointed in myself, that all I did was get high. When I left the bus, I went over to my stash and just snorted, until I felt the buzz again. Now, I'm so high I don't even know what's real. "She doesn't want to marry me." I said, stumbling around the parking lot. Eventually I tripped over a rock, and layed there splayed out on the ground. I heard someone walking over to me, whoever they were they wearing heels. Then I felt a slap across my face, I looked up to see Amanda standing over me. "You need to get yourself together!" Amanda told me, getting right in my face. "If you don't get your but to rehab, the label is gonna drop you!" Amanda said, I sat up right. "The label would really drop me?" I asked, still very out of it. "Yes! Because of your awful behavior, the fans have even considered not showing up. Because of your horrible performances!" She yelled. "But worst of all, you are gonna lose your fiance if you don't get better. That girl, has been crying for days! She barely eats, she looks like heck from lack of sleep, she's so worried about you! Did you know, she took off her engagement ring?" She said. My eyes went wide, I can't believe she actually did that. "You are going to lose her, and trust me I know you don't want that!" Then she slapped me again. Amanda was right, I needed to get myself together. For Emily. I love her more than anything, and I love music just as much. I looked down at my bag of drugs, and I tossed it in the trash can. I then checked myself into a rehab, and started my long journey of recovery. 

Emily P.O.V.

I'm proud of Kieran for getting help, and he told me how sorry he was, and how stupid he'd been. I put my ring back on, and told him I still wanted to marry him. He kissed me, and said that was the best news he's heard in a long time. Of course recovery wasn't easy, he was sick a lot, getting off that stuff wasn't fun. But I was there the whole time, helping him through everything. We also postponed the rest of tour, until Kieran was well enough to perform again. On one of his better days, Kieran was writing songs. It was so great to see him create again. And on his bad days, I would lay with him in bed, helping him through the withdrawals, and the sickness. Tonight was a bad night, Kieran felt horrible. He was in pain, and so sick. "Baby, I don't feel well." He said, all clenched up. "I know, I know babe." I said, holding him. "You're gonna get better, I know you are." I said, as I ran my fingers through his hair. We were in a hotel room, in Texas. It was quite nice, very spacious, the bathroom was lovely. Kieran and I were in almost complete darkness, just some soft light from a little nightlight I got. Kieran said his eyes were sore, and I didn't want to make them worse with too bright lights. "Do you need anything?" I asked him. "Just you being here is enough, thank you so much for being with me through all of this. I really appreicate it." He said, and I knew he meant every word. "Of course, you're my fiance, and I love you. I'll always take care of you." I said, gently kissing his nose. "I'm so sorry, I put you through this. You must have been so scared, I never meant to scare you." He said, squeezing my hand, as a pain shot through his body. "I know, it's okay. But I was really worried about you, I was so scared that you might." I couldn't finish that sentence, tears started to fall down my face. But I felt him, gently wipe them away. "Hey, hey, babygirl, it's okay. I'm still here, I would never leave you like that." He said, looking me deep in the eyes. I knew how sincere he was, he gently kissed my hand. "Have I ever told you how much I love your eyes?" I asked him, just staring deeply into them. "You love my eyes?" He asks, looking surprised. "I do, they're so pretty." I said, caressing his face. "Thanks baby, I just wish they didn't hurt so bad right now." He said, through clenched teeth. "I know my sweet boy, I think I might know how to help with that." I said, and went into the bathroom. I came back out, with a washcloth that was soaked in warm water. "Here babe, this should help." I said, gently placing the cloth on Kieran's sore eyes. "Ohhh, that feels really good." He said, relaxing. "That's good my love." I said, grabbing his hand again. I started to shake, I think a meltdown was coming on. "Baby? Are you okay?" He asked me. "Shouldn't I be worried about you right now?" I asked, voice shaky. "Baby, you're shaking!" He said sitting up, and I noticed he winced. "Careful babe." I said, guiding him back down. "No, no you need me right now, the pain's just gonna have to deal." He said, as he pulled me closer to him. "Lay on my chest babygirl, I know it helps you." He said, guiding me onto his chest. He let out a short burst of breath, but brushed it off saying how I need this. I really needed it, I laid my head on his chest. There was his heartbeat, strong and steady. I knew he was still alive, and that reassured me so much. "It's okay, babygirl. You're safe, I promise you're safe." He said, petting my hair. "I really missed this." I said, looking up at him. "I did too, I love cuddling with you." He said. I could have cried right there, I was back where I belonged. Being back in Kieran's arms, made me think that things will go back to normal soon. "I also miss performing." He said. "I know, but you'll be back in performing shape in no time." I whispered yawning. "We should both get some rest." Kieran said, as he also yawned. I nodded, but I wasn't ready to sleep yet. "Do you want me to sing to you?" He asked. I nodded, I really missed his voice. "I never meant to be the one, who kept you from the dark. But now I know, my wounds are sewn, because of who you are. I will take this burden on, and become the holy one. But remember I am human, and I'm bound to sing this song." He was singing Saviour by Black Veil Brides. That was one of my favourite slow songs, and it does make me feel better. "So hear my voice, remind you not to bleed, I'm here. A saviour will be there, when you are feeling alone, oh. A saviour for all that you do, so you'll live freely without their harm." Kieran sang, as I slowly drifted off to sleep. His voice wasn't one hundred percent yet, but in that moment it was the most beautiful sound I've ever heard. "Goodnight baby, I love you so much." I heard Kieran whisper, and felt him kiss my head. 

Stay tuned for part 8