I Will Love You More Than Death pt. 3

 I Will Love You More Than Death pt.3

An Emo Romance

P.O.V. Emily

So many thoughts ran through my mind as I was processing what Kieran just said. I was happy for him of course, I mean it's been his dream to perform, and to be signed a record deal. But I was also nervous, because I didn't know what this meant for us. Now here he was just staring at me, waiting for my response. I took a deep breath, and told him. "I'm so proud of you Kieran." I said, giving him a smile. "Thank you baby, I never could have gotten here without you. Which is why I invited you to the meeting with me." I was shocked, I didn't think he would want me there. "Really? You want me there?" I asked. "Of course, we're on this journey together." He said, and kissed my forehead. A little bit of my doubt disappeared, but only a little. There was still a lot that I was unsure of, but maybe the meeting will help with all my questions. "Well than what are we waiting for? Let's get back to your place, and find your demo." I said, grabbing his hand. After we grabbed Kieran's demo, we met up with the guy from the record label at the coffee shop. "It's a pleasure to meet both of you." Dean said. "It's nice to meet you too sir." Kieran said, and I nodded. "I'll tell you what Kieran, you have quite the beautiful lady." He said, and I shyly looked away. "I know I do, I love her so much." Kieran said, gently squeezing my hand. He knows how anxious I get around people, and he also knows squeezing my hand helps me feel better. I relax at his touch, and return my attention back to Dean. "I mean you must (inappropriate comment) every day." He said, with a smirk. I paled at the remark, and felt my heart speed up. I was also appalled at what he said. "Hey, hey, that's my girl you're talking about!" Kieran said, pulling me closer, placing a protective arm around me. "That's not a very polite thing to say, plus I thought we were here to discuss me getting a record deal." He said, putting us back on track. "Oh, we are. I just can't believe you're not (inappropriate comment) as pretty as her! I mean come on man." Dean said, again making me extremely uncomfortable. "Okay, that's enough! What happens between me and my girl, is our business! If all you care about is what we do in our private time together, and I bid you good day sir! Come on baby, let's go." Kieran said, helping me stand and walking us to the door. "Hey where do you think you're going? I have the deal of a lifetime for you kid!" Dean said calling after us. "No deal is worth hurting my love, with your rude comments. Good day to you sir." Kieran said, as we walked out. When we got to the park, Kieran placed his hands on my shoulders. He looked me in the eyes, and said. "Are you okay baby?" With concern and love shining in those blue eyes. "I'm better now that we're out of there, but I'm sorry you lost your record deal." I said. "Oh don't worry about that my love, I'm sure they'll be others." He said, smiling. "How about we go get some food?" So we went to our favourite pizza place, and bought a cheese pizza to go. We got back to Kieran's place, and settled in to watch a movie. While eating our pizza, I turn to Kieran and ask: "Hey babe? You don't really talk about your dad much. I know he walked out on you guys, but have you heard from him?" I put my pizza aside to look at him. "I haven't heard from him, since the day he left." Kieran said, looking at the floor. "You don't have to talk about it, if you don't want to." I said, taking in hands in mine. "No, I want to. I trust you enough to tell you." He said. I nodded. "It all started on a hot summer day. Mid July, I was 6 years old. I was playing in the sandbox, building castles, using my trucks to help." I saw him smile at the memory. My mom had gone inside the house for some ice tea, but when she came back out. I saw tears in her eyes, and she sat down on one of the lawn chairs, she put her face in her hands and started sobbing." Kieran grabbed his arms, hugging himself. I wrapped my own arms around him, and softly kissed his forehead. That gave him the courage to continue. "I was scared something had happened, so I ran over to her. I asked her if she was okay, and she looked at me with a tear stained face. And she said. "Sweetheart, I'm so sorry to tell you this. Daddy left, and he's not coming back." Kieran had tears in his own eyes now, and so did I. I pulled him closer to me. "I started to cry, and she held me against her, I haven't seen or heard from my dad since." Kieran finished. "I'm so sorry babe." I said, stroking his hair. "It kind of messed me up for a while, for a long time I thought he left because of me." He said, looking dejected. "When I was 13, I was in a really dark place. I used to cut myself." Kieran showed me the scars on his wrists. I gasped as I saw them, red faded lines in his beautiful skin. But I just grabbed his hands, and kissed each scar. "I'm not weirded out by them, if that's what you think. When I look at these scars, I see what you've gone through. What you were feeling. I love you Kieran." He gave me a small smile. "I love you too, so much." He said with so much devotion in his voice. "There was a point where it got really bad, I even ended up in the hospital. My mom got me some help, and I haven't cut for four years." He said. "I'm so proud of you." I said, squeezing him just a little bit tighter. "I know now, that my dad chose to leave. It was his choice, and it wasn't anything I did. I don't think he wanted to be a father anyway." He said. I nodded, agreeing. Someone who walks out on their family, isn't someone who wanted one. "When he left, my mom started working extra shifts to help support us. Part of why I want to get a record deal, is so I can help my mom out with the bills." He said. "Then maybe she won't have to keep working so late." I caressed his cheek, and placed a soft kiss there. "That is so sweet, I promise you are going to get another chance at a record deal. We can even apply to some ourselves!" I said. He seemed to like this idea, because he grabbed me, and threw me down on the bed. "You're amazing, you know that?" He said, capturing my lips in a kiss. "Hehe, I try." I say, with a giggle. We both let out a yawn, and settle into bed. I lay my head on his chest, hearing that strong heartbeat that I love so much. Kieran places a protective arm around me, and kisses the top of my head. "Goodnight baby, love you." He says, drifting off. "Goodnight babe, love you too." I say, before closing my eyes. About an hour or so goes by, and I'm deep in sleep. When I feel a sudden jerking motion. I open my eyes, take a quick look around. But I didn't see anything, so I closed my eyes again. A few minutes go by, then I feel it again. I pick my head up to see Kieran wincing in his sleep, I notice he's holding his tummy. I gently tap on his chest, trying to wake him up. "hmm, is something wrong baby?" He asked groggily. He was so cute, when he just woke up. "Nothing's wrong with me, but you seem to be in pain." I said. "Oh, yeah my tummy hurts, I think I ate too much pizza." He says, rubbing his belly. "Here, let me help." I say. I grab a plushie for him to cuddle with, and a heating pad, and some painkillers in case he needs it. "There you go, this should help you feel better." I said, with a smile. "Aww, thank you so much baby." He said, smiling goofily. "Mwah! Get some rest my love." I tell him as I climb back into bed next to him. "I will, sleep well baby." I agreed to sleep well, and we both fell back to sleep. 

P.O.V Kieran

I'm sitting in art class right now, trying to focus on my assignment. But all I can think about is Emily, not just because I'm in love with her. But because, she's been a little off lately. I've been trying to give her space, and hopefully she comes to me when she's ready. But she just seems very drawn into herself. I'm worried about her, I just want to know what's going on. I don't want to pry into her life, but at the same time I'm scared she might do something hurtful. The bell rings, and I gather my things, walking to my locker. Emily and I always meet up at our lockers in between classes, and I see her there. Only she's sitting on the floor, her knees drawn up to her chest, and she has her head down. She also appears to be crying. "Baby? What's wrong?" I gently ask her. "I-I, I can't." She hiccupped. "Shh, shh, take all the time you need my love." I say, as I wrap my arm around her. "I want to tell you, but it's hard for me to talk about." She said, burying her head in my chest. Which was her safe place. "You don't have to tell me right now, you can tell me when you're ready my rose." I tell her, kissing her temple. "Thank you." She says. I help her up, and pull her into a deep hug. "I'm gonna walk you to class." I say, as I pick up her books for her. After I make sure she's alright, I walk to my own class. Only the worry won't leave me, I wish I knew what she was going through. I want to help if I can. I love her so much, and I hate seeing her so upset. I eventually arrive at my science class, and I try my best to make it through the rest of the day. Finally it's after school, and Emily and I always go to the park after school. I skateboard, while she writes. Sometimes, I catch her dancing to her music. I look over at her, and fall in love all over again. Only this time, she doesn't write, and she doesn't dance. She just stares at the ground, lost in thought. After the park, we're back at my place. Mom is working late again, so I unlock the door and we head inside. We're in my room, and that's when Emily breaks down. She falls to the floor on her knees, and just cries. I was so concerned. "Baby? What's the matter?" I ask, worry edged in my voice. I help her to the bed, and sit down next to her. "Breathe baby, in and out." I say, trying to help calm her breathing. "That's it, good job. You're doing so well." I praise her, as I see her relax slightly. "I'm worried about you love, I won't pressure you into telling me. But I want you to know, that you can tell me anything. I promise, I won't judge." I reassure her. She nods, and I give her a tissue. "I, I want to tell you. But can you hold my hand? I just, I need you to hold my hand while I say this." She says in a very pleading tone. I look in her eyes, and I can tell how scared she is. "I promise baby, I'll be right here the whole time." I tell her, taking her hand in mine and giving it an encouraging squeeze. Emily takes a deep breath, and begins. "I was in love with someone before you." She says. "I met them online, they lived in England. I thought they were amazing. They were my first love." I feel her tense up at the memory, and I give her hand another squeeze. "To make it long story short, it wasn't a healthy relationship. They eventually ended things, and I moved on. Only I was left with a lot of trauma, from both times we tried to be together." She said, her breathing becoming rapid again. "It's okay baby, you're doing so well." I say, kissing her head. "There were times where I felt pressured by them, to do certain things." I see her tear up, and I pull her closer to me. "Things that, I didn't want to do. Even though they told me I was safe and it was okay. I was terrified to do it, I only did because I knew that's what they wanted and liked. But I didn't think about how it was affecting me." She says, with such dejection in her voice. It breaks my heart. "I didn't realize how much I was hurting, until it was over. The second time things ended, it really put things into perspective for me. It's what made me figure out I'm asexual, and how I don't like sex." She said. "Because I didn't really like all the sexual comments, and remarks they would make about me. I only went along with it, because I thought I was supposed to." She said, looking at the floor. I wasn't doing what was right for me, I was hurting myself trying to hold on to something that wasn't right, because I was so tired of losing people. But nothing is worth all the pain, I'm still going through. I know that now." She says, looking up at me. "I still have bad days, and I have flashbacks sometimes. But other days I'm okay, like when I'm with you." She says, giving me a small smile. "You have no idea how much you mean to me, and how much I appreciate you being so sweet and gentle with me. And actually mean it, and you actually know how scared I get about stuff, and you don't make me do the things that make me anxious." She says, crying again. I just hold her closer, hoping she can feel my love through my arms. "Thank you for telling me baby, I'm so proud of you for telling me." I say to her. She smiles, nuzzling her face in my chest. "Thank you for listening." She says, with a sigh. "Always my love." I tell her. "You look tired baby, how about we take a little rest before we have dinner?" I mention. "Sounds good to me." She says, laying down. I make sure she knows, she's always safe with me. And that's a promise, my poor girl has been through so much. I just want her to know, how much I love her. I would never hurt her, I feel like if I did it would break her further. I wouldn't be able to forgive myself. "Hey baby? Can I just ask you one more thing?" I say. "Okay." She says with a yawn. "How do you feel about all of it?" She looks at me, and says. "I do have some comfort in knowing that it's really over this time, even if they do say they want me back or whatever I'm gonna say no! I'm done getting hurt by them." She says. I smile at her. "That's good my love, because you're mine now. And I'm not letting you go that easily." I say kissing her forehead. She giggles, and she settles back on my chest. I will do anything to keep her safe. 

P.O.V Emily

It's been a few months, since I told Kieran everything. I feel better now, I know I can trust him. Things with him have been great, he is truly my best friend and my one true love. Now with his birthday coming up, I want to do something really special for him. We both have been talking about going to see MCR, but tickets are almost impossible to get. Still Kieran deserves something really special for his birthday. I'm in my room alone, because Kieran is helping his mom out with grocery shopping. I figured while he's gone, I'm gonna try to get those tickets! I get on my computer, and look up the sight. Tickets actually aren't that bad a price, my allowance should cover it. "Emmy!" I hear Sam say, as he walks upstairs. "I'm in my room Sammy!" I yell back. "What are you doing?" He asked coming in. "Can you keep a secret?" I ask him. "Ooh yeah!" He said, with a vigorous head nod. "Kieran's birthday is coming up, and I want to get him something really nice. I'm trying to get us tickets for the My Chemical Romance concert." I tell him. "Wow! He'll love it!" Sammy said, with wide eyes. "I know, I was thinking these seats. They're close enough to the stage, but not so close we blow out our eardrums." I tell him, showing him the seating chart. "That's good." He says, with a little smile. "Now you can't tell him, okay? It's a surprise remember?" I remind him. "I promise sis, I won't tell him!" He says, crossing his heart. "Okay then, you go help mom and dad set the table." Sammy nodded, and ran down the stairs. I purchase the tickets, and once they're bought. I click print, and take them out. "Perfect!" I say. I put them somewhere safe, until I can get a card. Then I join my family for dinner. About a week later, Kieran's mom invited me out to dinner with her and Kieran. We went to this pasta restaurant, and the food was fantastic. When there was a quiet moment, I turn to Kieran and say "I know your birthday isn't until Saturday, but I wanted to give you your present early." I say, handing out a card. On the card was a birthday cake, and it said "Happy Birthday to the coolest guy I know." Kieran was touched, and opened up the card. His eyes went wide, when he looked inside it. "OMG baby?! How did you get these?" He said, as he took out the tickets. "I bought them last week." I said. "Thank you so much! We're gonna have such a great time at this show!" He said, kissing me. I smiled, knowing we for sure are. Before we knew it, Saturday came. The concert was that night, so before we went to the show. Kieran and I did our favourite things together, we went to the park, the mall, the music store, Hot Topic, the candle store (because we like to smell them) and of course the pet store. After our fun day together, we got back to his place to get ready for the concert. I already had my outfit at his house, so I changed in the bathroom. I wore my ripped leggings, my black mini skirt, with a blue studded belt, a bunch of Kandi bracelets, some blue fishnet gloves, an MCR T-shirt, a tattoo choker, and of course my blue beanie. I also had my nails painted blue. And to finish it off, my blue converse. When I came out of the bathroom, I felt so pretty! I saw Kieran in his outfit, it was amazing! He was wearing his usual black skinny jeans, a black and red MCR t-shirt, some black and red arm warmers, with spiked bracelets, his skull ring, a spiked choker, with just a simple silver chain necklace. And of course his usual black smoky eyeliner that made his beautiful blue eyes pop! "Wow! You look beautiful baby!" He says, as I twirl for him. "Thank you, so do you." I tell him, making him blush. "Come on! Let's go!" I squeal, so excited for tonight! I even brought my camera, to take pictures. We let our parents know we were heading out, and took off for the venue. Before we went to the concert, we got a quick dinner at this cute little place. They had a variety of foods, I had the chicken strips and sweet potato fries, and Kieran had the mashed potatoes with grilled chicken and carrots. Then we went to the venue, the place was crazy! But also really awesome! I was nervous because so many people were around, but I came prepared. I put my headphones on, and grabbed Kieran's hand to help steady myself. "It's okay, baby. I'll be right by your side, the whole night." He told me, giving me a sweet kiss. "Thanks babe." I tell him, as we walked toward the stage. The whole venue was buzzing with excitement! But it was kind of cold in there, and I started shivering. "Are you cold love?" I nodded. Kieran took off his leather Jacket, and placed it around my shoulders. "There you go baby." I smiled at him, and laid my head on his shoulder. Once everyone was piled into the venue, the lights went off. The crowd screamed, and us along with it. Then they took the stage! Gerard screamed "How we all doing tonight?!" And we all screamed "Good!" Then their first song started, which was Black Parade, one of our favourite songs. Kieran and I sang at the top of our lungs, jumping and laughing. I got some great footage on my camera, plus pics of the two of us. It was one of the best nights of my life, after the concert I fell asleep on the way home. I didn't know when we had gotten home, but I did feel the slight touch of Kieran's hand moving on the hair off my face. "Thank you for a wonderful birthday baby, I love you so much." I heard him say before he kissed me, then climbed in next to me. He wrapped his arm around me, and I felt so safe. A perfect ending to a perfect day. 

P.O.V Kieran

I had such a great birthday! It's been a grate half of the year, since I met my girlfriend. Now with the holidays coming I just know it's going to be amazing! I'm working on a new song for my EP, when I get a text from my girl. It said "I can't come over today babe, I'm sick :(" Aww my poor rose, I should go over there and cheer her up. I grab my guitar, and one of my hoodies. She likes wearing them, because they smell like me. I knock on the door of her house, and her mom answers. "Oh hello Kieran, Emily isn't feeling very well today." She said, with a concern tone to her voice. "I know, she texted me. How sick is she?" I ask. "Pretty sick, I think she has the flu." Her mom said. That's no fun, hopefully I can help her feel better. "Would it be okay, if I went up to see her?" I asked. "Well, I don't see why not. I'm sure she'd be happy to see you." She said, letting me inside. I pass by her dad sitting in the couch, watching TV with Sam. "Hi Kieran!" Sam said, waving at me. "Hey buddy, hey Mr. Peters." I say to her dad. "Hello Kieran, how's your EP coming along?" He asked. "Oh just fine, I'm actually trying to finish it before the holidays." I say. He nods. "Keep up the good work." He tells me, with a thumbs up. "Thank you sir." I tell him, before heading upstairs to see my love. I softly knocked on her door. "Baby, it's me! Can I come in?" I ask, in a cheery voice. I didn't hear anything, so I carefully opened the door. When I peaked inside, I saw her laying in bed. All curled up, with the blankets pulled snug around her. I see she's cuddling with the plushie I got her, she looks so cute. I also notice the bucket by the bed. Poor girl, I've been there. "Hey baby, it's me." I say gently, as I touch her leg. "hmm." She says, turning over to face me. "Oh, what are you doing here?" She asked me, clearly still sleepy. "I came to help my sweet girl feel better." I said with a smile, as I sit on her bed. "Aww, that's so sweet. But I don't want to get you sick." She said, sadly. "Don't worry about me, I'll be fine. And if I do get sick, well then you'll just have to take care of me." I said with a wink. That made her giggle a little bit. "I can play you something, I know that usually makes you feel better." I said, picking up my guitar. "I would love that." She said, sitting up a little more. I began to play one of her favourite songs, It Ends Tonight by The All American Rejects. "When darkness turns to light, it ends tonight, it ends tonight." I sang, and I see her smiling at me. Even when she's weak and sick, she's still beautiful. The way her eyes light up when I sing for her, it makes my heart melt. "It ends tonight." I finish, the last line dragging the note out. She claps a little bit, and I take a small bow. "Thank you baby, I'm happy you enjoyed it." I say, as I blew her a kiss. "You're so talented babe, I just know you're going to make it big one day." Her encouragement means so much to me, knowing that she believes in me, it makes me believe that I can make it in the music industry. Emily starts coughing hard, and she doubles over in pain. "Baby? Are you okay?" I ask worried. She shakes her head, before she retches off the bed and throws up into the bucket. I go behind her, and rub her back. "It's okay baby, I'm here." I say, pulling her hair back from her face. When she felt like she was done, Emily cried. "Oh baby, I know it sucks." I say, as I hold her. "You'll be okay, and I'm gonna stay with you until you feel better." I promise her. "Th-thank you." She says in between sobs. I get her some medicine, and some water, and she settles back down in bed. "How are you feeling baby?" I ask, as I softly stroke her hair. "My tummy is achy." She says, with pain in her voice. "I know something that might help." I grab the heating pad from the side of her bed, and plug it in. Then I place it gently on her sore tummy. "There you go my love, this should help." I say, after placing a kiss to her forehead. "Thanks babe." She says, relaxing slightly. "How about a movie?" I suggest. "Sure." She says. I put in Edward Scissorhands, a favourite of ours. We watch the movie for awhile, and I feel Emily slowly drift off to sleep next to me. "Go to sleep baby, I'll be here when you wake up." I tell her. Then she closes her eyes, cuddling up to her plushie. I stay by her side all night, and after a few days she feels a lot better. "Thank you for taking care of me." She tells me on our way to school, Monday. "I'd do anything for you my love." I say, as I kiss her. "You're so good to me, I never thought this would ever happen to me." She says, with slight tears in her eyes. "I never thought you would happen to me." I say to her. Then kiss her again. Another month goes by, and it's the first day of summer! Emily and I are at the pool, having such a great time! Splashing and swimming, playing shark and Marco Polo. I pick her up and swing her around, she lets out happy squeals. Then when we're drying off, we snap some pics. "This is the best first day of summer ever!" Emily cheers. "It really is." I say lovingly. "Are you nervous about graduating next year?" She asks me. "Yeah, the only thing I want to do after high school is perform. But I guess that's not very realistic." I tell her. "What have I told you, you are going to make it big one day! I just know it!" She says, looking me straight in the eyes. "I believe you, you're right. It's gonna happen!" I say proudly. "That's my guy." She says, kissing me passionately on the lips. "Come on, let's go look at the stars!" We go out into this field, and lay down gazing at the stars. "I love space." Emily tells me. "It's so pretty, and every time I look out here and see the moon and the stars, I know there's something bigger than myself out there. And for some reason, I know it has my back." She says. "I love the way you see the world." I whisper to her. "Hehe thanks babe." She giggles, taking my hand in hers. "You know, these stars aren't nearly as bright as the one I'm laying next to." I say to her. She turns to look at me, with a blush on her cheeks. "I love you." She tells me. "I love you too." I say back. It was a wonderful year, and with graduation only a year away. There's so many uncertainties, but one thing I do know, is the love we have for each other. Because our story is just beginning.

Stay tuned because this isn't the end of Emily and Kieran's story. I will be doing little one-shots of them, like little themed storylines. Plus a part four!