Being a Fangirl!

 Being A Fangirl

Hi my name is Grace Guitar. (yes that is actually my last name) I live in Ontario Canada, with my mom, dad, and younger brother. I also have a dog, and chickens which we get eggs from everyday. I have social anxiety, I love to dance, sing, read, write, listen to music, and post on my fanpage on Facebook. I love chatting with my online friends as well. Today's blog is all about being a fangirl! This is an area I have a lot of experience in, as I have been in many fandoms throughout my life. My first fandoms were Dora the explorer and the Disney princesses, they were my whole world when I was little. That's how it all started, I've been obsessive since I was five! What I would like to talk about now is the fandom I joined back in 2016. This is kind of a sore subject for me, this fandom broke my heart and it was really hard to take. But at the same time I never would have joined the fandom I'm in now! 


Let me take you back to the beginning. It all started near the second last week of October in 2016, just before my 13th birthday. There was this band that I loved so much, they are a Canadian pop-rock band called Marianas Trench. Long story short I fell head over heels for their music, and their lead singer. His name was Josh Ramsay, he was everything I ever wanted and my first real crush. I was able to see them in concert 3 times, and I actually got to meet them once. Then everything came crashing down in 2018. They were at an award show called the Juno awards, a Canadian award show for music. The band was there with their significant others, and I saw Josh with this women. She was his ex way back when, and somehow they had gotten back together. You see even though Josh was way too old for me, I didn't care I was in love with him! I tried to deny it for awhile that he was taken, and being in denial is not good. I was trying to protect my heart, but it didn't work every time he would talk about her in interviews or post about her on social media I would be so sad. Then in early 2020 I found out he had gotten married! Yet I still kept denying it wasn't happening. I was upset for a little bit after this, my heart was broken.

Later that year I was scrolling around through YouTube when I came across this video. It was a show about singing and teenage angst, it was called glee. I clicked on the video and I was instantly hooked. This wasn't the first time I had heard about the show, my dad had suggested it to me but I was too young to watch it then, and a couple friends of mine were really into it. I reached out to one of those friends during the pandemic, and she let me borrow her DVDs of the show and that's how I saw it for the first time. I was really captivated by this one character named Kurt Hummel, I thought he was really shy and he's so cute! I was and still am a Kurt fan! He really inspired me to be myself, to not care what other people think of me. A little bit after that, I was curious about the actor who played him and started learning all these amazing things about him. His name is Chris Colfer and I love him so much! He healed my heart and I am forever thankful for that. 

I made a fanpage for him, and it is very successful! I've met some great people on there, and made a couple friends! Now I have a new crush, and the best thing about this crush is he won't break my heart because he's gay! I love him just the way he is, Chris is the best thing that ever happened to me!


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