As It Is-Never Happy, Ever After

 As It Is-Never Happy, Ever After Album Lyrics

Speak Soft

Why should I stick around, when all I do is let you down? Can I ask you a question? When you see my reflection, do you see good intentions? Where I see no progression, speak soft, speak soft. Your forgiveness, tell me lies tell me that I deserve it. Speak soft, speak soft. Say I blew this, that every promise that I break is worth it. (That every promise that I break is worth it) Why should I stick around, when all I do is let you down? I'm bad news you can't deceive me, I'd never choose to be me. Can I give you an answer? The beauty and the cancer, you're an always shining silver lining. And I'm a f******* born disaster. Speak soft, speak soft. Of your patience, tell me how I'm distant and complacent. Speak soft, speak soft. Your frustration, unacquainted with your expectations. (Unacquainted with your expectations) Why should I stick around, when all I do is let you down? I'm bad news you can't deceive me, I'd never choose to be me. Seems all I know is what I'm not. Speak soft, speak soft. I can't seem to find the words, to remedy how bad this hurts. Seems all I know is what I'm not. Speak soft, speak soft. When you're staring down a loaded gun, can anyone fall back on love? I can't seem to find the words, to remedy how bad this hurts. When you're staring down a loaded gun, can anyone fall back on love? Can anyone fall back on love, can anyone fall back on love? Speak soft, speak soft. Why should I stick around, when all I do is let you down? I'm bad news, you can't deceive me, I'd never choose to be me. 

Cheap Shots & Setbacks

You've got everything to look up to, from the bottom. You've got everyone else to compare yourself against, so forget it, you're forgotten. In a world so disenchanted. Always asking, never knowing. Is it just you or everybody else? We're the kids who are dead inside, but we're the ones who feel alive. We dream cause we don't sleep, we'll never get rest but we got this. It hurts, and they like that. They fight fire, with cheap shots and set backs. They take cloudless thoughts and pristine hearts for granted. So forget them, they've forgotten you already. You can't help, can't help but ask yourself. Is it just me or everybody else? We're the kids who are dead inside, but we're the ones who feel alive. We dream cause we don't sleep, we'll never get rest but we got this. We're the kids who are dead inside, but we're the ones who feel alive. We dream cause we don't sleep, we'll never get rest but we got this. I don't need your cheap shots, and set backs. I'm f****** fine, so go and take them all back. I don't need your cheap shots, and setbacks. I don't need your cheap shots and setbacks. I'm f******** fine so go and take them all back. I don't need your cheap shots and setbacks, we're the kids who are dead inside. But we're the ones who feel alive, we dream cause we don't sleep. We'll never get rest, but we got this. We're the kids who are dead inside, but we're the ones who feel alive. We dream cause we don't sleep, we'll never get rest but we got this. We're the kids who are dead inside, but we're the ones who feel alive. We dream cause we don't sleep, we'll never get rest but we got this. 

Sorry

Fix me, I'm defective. Stitch me up, and make me feel new again. Take all that's wrong and correct it, leave nothing that resembles this mess that I am. I miss what never was with us, our fiction I constructed. You're everywhere and all that I think about, I can't even feel alone in own head. On my own again, I'm trying not to feel cause I'm feeling like the world forgot me. On my own again, yeah you were always his. And all I ever was, was sorry. I'm my own invention, an unfulfilled and underwhelmed work of art. I'm desperate for your affection, it's hopeless I know, but that's just who I am. It's like my mind has mirrored walls, and you're standing in the middle. I'm equal parts self-doubt and confidence, and I'm confident I'll die with every word I have left unsaid. I'm just a reader, you're every chapter. Never happy, ever after. (On my own again)

Drowning Deep In Doubt

What good is a life, when you live it ashamed? I dream just to be halfway, but all I am is the product of wasted effort and best intensions. If the only place I belong is an afterlife that I just can't believe in. At least I'll know I was born so not everyone lives and dies on their own. Woah, this world has torn apart. Left me drowning deep in doubt. This fire in my heart, is beginning to burn me out. What good is a life, when you live it alone? I just want to be wanted, we do this while start wondering if disaster is what you're built for. Will I slowly learn to accept that I won't have more than a life on the sidelines, or will I always be dreaming of liking life from the darkness alone? Woah, this world has torn apart. Left me drowning deep in doubt, this fire in my heart. Is beginning to burn me out, it's so hard to feel anything but empty. It hurts just to feel anything at all, it's so hard to feel anything I want to. It hurts just to feel, it hurts just to feel. Woah, this world has torn apart. Left me drowning deep in doubt, this fire in my heart. Is beginning to burn me out. Woah, this world has torn apart. Left me drowning deep in doubt. This fire in my heart, is beginning to burn me out. 

Dial Tones

It really hurts to know that I'm why your bed's half empty, why you sleep alone or just stare up at your ceiling. And if you're a mess, God knows what that makes me. Cause the weight from all my guilt is all too much for me to carry, I'm sorry. Am I all that you never wanted? Or has it been so long that you've forgotten? All we ever share are dial tones, (dial tones) Take your caution or take your chances, I'll mend your heart and break it in the same breath. All we ever share are dial tones (dial tones) (Dial tones) I'm getting more of what I've always wanted, but becoming less of who I've ever been. Cause I promised myself I'd never hurt you and I did, if you can't trust a liar, how can you trust me again? I'm running out of ways to say I'm sorry. Am I all that you never wanted? Or has it been so long that you forgotten? All we ever share are dial tones (dial tones) Take your caution or take your chances, I'll mend your heart and break it in the same breath. All we ever share are dial tones. (dial tones) Forget me like you know you want to, forget me like you know you have to. It really hurts to know that I'm why your bed's half empty. Why you sleep alone or just stare up at your ceiling. Am I all that you never wanted? Or has it been so long that you've forgotten? All we ever share are dial tones. (dial tones) Take your caution or take your chances, I'll mend your heart and break it in the same breath. All we ever share are dial tones (dial tones) All we ever share are dial tones (dial tones) All we ever share are dial tones (Dial tones) 

My Oceans Were Lakes

More thought is less than said, war fought inside my head. Hard times and violent times, closed eyes and still framed minds. Cause all thoughts hate modern words, it's not just the ruth that hurts. Scars heal, but never stray. Well I see another day, another day. I'm starting to see my oceans were lakes, (I'm starting to see my) I'm starting to see my oceans were lakes. (I'm starting to see my) Before and aftermath, lost cause down countless paths. Lose grip and handlebars, the dull glow of lesser stars, I fall short with every mile. With fist fights and single file, if all this just washed away. Would I see a brand new day? A brand new day, I'm starting to see my oceans were lakes. (I'm starting to see my) I'm starting to see my oceans were lakes, (I'm starting to see my) I'm starting to see my oceans were lakes, I'm starting to see my oceans were lakes. I'm starting to see my oceans were lakes, I'm starting to see my oceans were lakes. 

Concrete

You don't say what you mean, when you say I'm what you need. You tell white lies from your heart of gold, I'm not the place you wanna be. I'm just the places in between, I feel complete, but uncomfortable. I get distracted by the greener grass, but I always find it blankets paths of broken glass. I told myself that I'll find my way back home, but getting lost is so easy on your own. My concrete's set, it's permanent. I'm stuck this way, now I can never change. No, I can't stop if all I've got. Is an empty heart, full of broken parts. I don't say what I mean, I can't give you everything. I'm as stubborn as cynical, it takes more than love to keep you smiling. More than hope to keep you trying, it's hard to be inseparable. When we have separate principles. My concrete's set, it's permanent. I'm stuck this way, now I can never change. No, I can't stop if all I've got is an empty heart, full of broken parts. I'm too far gone to change, for anyone. I'm too far gone to change for anyone. I'm too far gone to change, for anyone. I'm too far gone to change. My concrete's set, it's permanent. I'm stuck this way, now I can never change. No I can't stop, if all I've got is  empty heart. Full of broken parts. My concrete's set, it's permanent. I'm stuck this way, now I can never change. No I can't stop, if all I've got is an empty heart. Full of broken parts. 

Turn Back To Me

The memories are still so bright but I keep the curtains drawn, I've never been like this. Or am I just, romanticizing a person that's gone. I can only take so much before I spill my guts, but I'm terrified of letting you see what I'm thinking. But you left before I could, and if I could choose, I would. Cause my mind's a frightening and lonely place I can't escape at night. You dropped yourself away, time makes your dreams come true. I hoped that you would stay, miles mean nothing to you. (Turn back to me) It's all my fault and I know it. Turn back to me) It's all my fault and I know it. I know that I deserve to be alone, I wrote myself out of your story. And I know I made it seem like I never cared at all but I swear, I was always trying. This was hard when you were still around (you were still around) How am I meant to survive this now (survive this now) I'm so disappointed in who I chose to be (who I chose to be) I've been having nightmares that follow me until I fall asleep, you dropped yourself away. Time makes your dreams come true, I hoped that you would stay. Miles mean nothing to you. (come back to me) It's all my fault, and I know it. It's all my fault, and I know it. It's all my fault and I know it. It's all my fault, and I know it. It's all my fault, and I know. It's all my fault and I know it. It's all my fault and I know it. 

Can't Save Myself

I can't help, the way my mind is hardwired to hate myself. Cause I swear that this is hell, the way I desperately try to save myself. Cause I can't save myself. A single breath (in empty lungs) That's all I got left (gasping for air) And a bad idea branded in my brain, I can't seem to shake. (I can't seem to shake) Another day (in tired skin) I shed and fray (far from desire) Till all I am is textbook misery, and my own mistakes. (My own mistakes) And as I've aged the only thing I think has changed. Is that the demons have moved from under my bed, into the inner depths of my head. I can't escape the ugly things my mind creates, I speculate that they'll stay with me till the grave. I can't help, the way my mind is hardwired to hate myself. Cause I swear that this is hell, the way I desperately try to save myself. Cause I can't save myself, can't save myself. In broken bones (a half hearted smile) I feel at home (I'm proud of nothing) I tend to get attached so quick to all I've ever known. (all I've ever known) But I don't seem to know a single f******** thing that can save me. I'm my own worst enemy, is there any hope for me? I can't help the way my mind is hardwired to hate myself, cause I swear that this is hell. The way I desperately try to save myself. Cause I can't save myself. I'm the boy who chose not to grow up, and now I'm unprepared for anything. Now I'm scared and I'm cold, and alone because the world grew up without me. I'm the boy who chose not to grow up, and now I'm unprepared for anything. Now I'm scared, and I'm cold and alone. Because the world grew up without me. I'm the boy who chose not the grow up, and now I'm unprepared for anything. (Is there any hope for me?) I'm the boy who chose not to grow up, and now I'm unprepared for anything. (Is there any hope for me?) I can't help the way my mind is hardwired to hate myself. (Is there any hope for me?) Cause I swear that this is hell. The way I desperately try to save myself, cause I can't save myself. 

Silence (Pretending's So Comfortable) 

Four walls and a door, we used to call. The rest of our lives but not enough time, till we're both alone. I try to steady my hands, you hurt to know why. I open my mouth and just trip over sounds, but my eyes speak goodbye. The silence tells us all we need to know, I breathe nervous and slow. Well your desperate for air, my eyes sink to the floor. Yours go bounce down the stair, in my tears you know I meant all I said. As every elegant word I said sinks in again, the silence tell us all we need to know. (need to know) Pretending's so comfortable, but I have to go for the last time. You challenge all that I think, something is what made me it. I rephrase, and repeat. Leaving nothing unsaid, your hysterics aren't the last words you'd hear. As I stand to the your moment, your four walls full of fear. The silence tells us all we need to know (need to know) Pretending's so comfortable, but I have to go for the last time. We won't talk at all, we'll just wonder. We won't talk at all, we'll just wonder. We won't talk at all, we'll just wonder. We won't talk at all, we'll just wonder. Would we still swallow glass for each other, we won't talk at all, we'll just wonder. Would we still swallow glass for each other, the silence tells us all we need to know. (need to know) Pretending's so comfortable, but I have to go for the last time. The silence tells us all we need to know (need to know) Pretending's so comfortable, but I had to go. 

You, The Room & The Devil On Your Shoulder

Take care of yourself, but carry the whole world. Just forget that it hurts, from ankle to collarbone. And you think, and you bury your head away. And you sink, it's just you, the room and the devil on your shoulder. Take care of yourself, but you wish you were like them. So calm and assured, emotionally colorful. You're a fake, as soon as the door closes, you break. It's just you, the room, and the devil on your shoulder. Take care of yourself, but you're nothing but trouble. Just the damage of thought, you'll never recover from. How you love, a world you're only dreaming of. It's just you, the room, and the devil on your shoulder. 

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